Friday, November 23, 2012

Black Friday 2012 | College - Friday, November 23, 2012


I did some midnight Black Friday shopping for the very first time. It was an interesting experience, although I didn’t end up purchasing anything. It’s all good, though. The lines were way too long, while stores were very crowded. I didn’t really see anything I truly wanted. Stuff I want usually costs too much for what it’s worth in the first place. $80 for a hoodie. No. I’m not willing to pay that much for a hoodie. Speaking of hoodies, I don’t think I’m going to purchase any NCAA hoodies anymore. I don’t want to be wearing a USC hoodie when my chances of being accepted to USC are way too slim. I expected myself to either attain 2000 or at least close to it on the SAT, but I didn’t. It’s frustrating, really. I don’t see the point of high school anymore. I’d love to get started on community college already. Once I get into community college, I’ll hopefully transfer out to University of Southern California. I really don’t know anymore. Education was never meant to be like this. It’s nothing but a mess right now. Since education lost its value, people simply look at it as a way for them to get paid. I can go on about this, but I felt like I’ve talked about this countless times already.

Friday, November 16, 2012

Social Awkwardness - Greeting People

I wish I could be so confident that I wouldn’t be socially awkward. I’m going through such an awkward phase, constantly forcing myself to think way too much before making a decision that shouldn’t require too much thinking. I even have to think about when exactly to greet someone. For instance, if I’m walking down the hallway, I don’t want to stare at the person. I’m not exactly the type to yell out a greeting. I wait until I get close to the person before greeting. This tends to be the case with teachers. If I’m sitting somewhere, the scenario is even worse unless I have something to do. I honestly don’t want them to think I’m ignoring them, but I don’t want them to be too far from me when I greet them.

Saturday, November 3, 2012

Second Attempt with the SAT - Saturday, November 3, 2012

I took the SAT for the second time today. I have a feeling I did much better than I did last time, but I can't be too sure. Let's hope for the best. November 23 is when the results arrive through email. I haven't been feeling well the whole day. I really despise coughing and having to blow my nose every few minutes. It's horrible. I hate being sick.

Monday, October 29, 2012

Stuttering, a Psychological Battle - October 29, 2012

I definitely noticed that the more I think of my stutter and the possibility of its occurrence, the more I tend to really stutter. This usually happens on presentations. I get so nervous because I'm afraid of my stutter. It really doesn't help, however, to think so much about it. I should really start looking at myself more as one who doesn't stutter. I should believe I only stutter because it's a psychological issue. There's nothing physically wrong. It's all in my head.

Friday, October 26, 2012

Speaking to My Freshman-Year English Teacher - Friday, October 26, 2012

After finishing my lunch at school, I had  the wonderful opportunity to speak to my English teacher from my freshman year of high school. Three years have passed since he was a teacher of mine. I happened to pass by the classroom he was in and waved to him. I believe he waved back or said something, so I returned to stay for a while.

Honestly, I had not anticipated a conversation, so I didn't know exactly what to initially speak of. I'm glad to say that my social skills have improved over the years. I can guarantee that I wouldn't have been able to hold such a conversation three years ago. We spoke of Spirit Week, the skit the teachers will perform in, the homecoming game, and video games. It turned out to be a great dialogue as we began to speak about the psychological aspects of gaming.

I love it when I'm able to speak without the impingement caused by my stutter. My stutter definitely serves as an obstacle when it comes to my attempts to express myself. Hindering my path toward achieving goals and lowering my self-esteem, my stutter is frequently a contribution to my decline of confidence. Regardlessly, I hope to have overcome it someday. I know it will most likely be a gradual process, but it will be worth it.

Friday, October 12, 2012

Disappointment Over That?

I'm sitting here at the school's library. This Friday has been disappointing so far. I was highly anticipating being able to play a lot of basketball in P.E., but I didn't even have enough time to do anything. I swear these guys hog both the ball and play time. It's ridiculous. I hope next week is better because we should be put into teams by then. You might wonder why I take P.E. so seriously. It's just because I like basketball, but I never get any opportunities to showcase my abilities.

Monday, October 1, 2012

Putting Things Into Perspective - Monday, October 1, 2012

Happy October! I really should get started with blogging more often. It's definitely a good exercise to improve my writing skills. Lately, I've been dealing with a lot academic stress. I really dislike it when my partner for this one particular class acts like a complete jerk and a know-it-all. I shouldn't get phased by it too much. I'll probably have to deal with people like that in the future, so I should consider this as good preparation. I'm stressing over this class a lot because I barely know a thing about law. Yes, that's an overstatement and an exaggeration, but you get the point.

Sometimes we just have to put things into perspective. Whatever that means... Honestly, I don't know what that means, but I do know it's good. I have a feeling it means "looking at things in a reasonable manner." Perhaps I should look it up sometime.

The weather's been hot lately, although October has begun. I guess that's not too surprising for California weather since the weather here seems to be quite unpredictable.

Remember to put things into perspective.